This morning I shook the dust off my bike and hauled it downstairs for a spin. Knowing full well that after three months of slacking ‘spin’ likely meant around the block (if I was lucky), I hopped on and took off. Sort of. Okay not at all. Off I hopped, “Mother of pearl I’ve lost myself and can’t even pedal a bike anymore.” Then I looked down and realized the tires were flat. Then I contemplated going back inside to bed. But seeing as I’m…
Last month I had to go to jury duty. I was scared. Not of the duty itself but of having a panic attack IN the duty waiting area in front of a bunch of strangers, or maybe while going through the metal detector. (Previous post on post-stroke anxiety attacks here). What if? Those thoughts chased me for six months through three postponements. The week leading up to jury duty I prayed very hard and specifically, “God, please do not make…
I haven’t been writing here too often because I’ve been trying to get some things figured out. Specifically, faith. Faith is a tough thing for me. My problem is not with God, my problem is with the distance I feel from God. Like, am I doing this wrong? When I first became a Christian I never thought I’d be in this position, but a few churches and a bad relationship left me feeling like the survivor of a bomb blast:…
Yesterday in a twist of irony my landlord sent his handyman over to pressure wash the outside of the house. For three hours. In a drought. On the last day of the driest summer on record. There I was, trapped inside a building engulfed in more water than its seen in years. Me and three cats. Meanwhile the neighbors congregated in the back alley hollering things like, “WE’RE IN A DROUGHT!”and “HEY MAN DID YOU KNOW WE’RE IN A DROUGHT?”, while cars…